I'm such a laughing stock. Haaha.
Broke up w/ my ex bf for some stupid random guy?
And now treated as if i'm his puppet.

I'm so lost. Everyday i have to cry yet have to tolerate all his scolding.
I love someone who doesn't love me as much?
Worth it? No.
I lose my ego for such guy?
And i call him my boyfriend?
Very funny.

Why? Must i know him in the first place?
Thinking that he's the one.
No matter what happen he will stand by me, he will guide me thru my life.

Initially, he's sweet. Really sweet.
Now it's as if he's sick of me.
I used to think he scold me only when he think i'm noisy.
But no.
He also scold me when i'm being sweet to him.
He don't love me at all.

I'm something he can vent his anger on.
Something, not fit to be a someone.
HAAHAA. Funny.

Why am i keep sacrificing for boys who treated me so badly? Why?
He did helped me in my money problems.
However, he shout/scold me a lot more times than i should deserve.

I'm always very clumsy & i'm not very a smart person.
Why will i get scolding for that?
It's not my fault.
I'm born that way.
Can you change that?
No, not even my mother can do that.

I always changing for the better.
Not for myself, for him.
I'm living for him.
Does he appreciate me?
No.
He don't deserve me.

No one does.
Even my mother don't want me either.
No one wants me.

So pathetic.
















Kill me.
Don't drown me in my sorrow.